Tuesday, January 3, 2012

My Crazy Horrible Wonderful Life


My husband came home today during his lunch break, and we headed out to run some errands. As soon as we got on the freeway we could see the reds lights flashing and whirling and the many, many emergency vehicles over on the right hand shoulder. A terrible accident…..a brief glance, a lone car upside down, broken and smashed, I quickly looked away before I saw more than I could deal with. We were immediately both thrown back in time to similar remembered events. His, driving the same route to work every workday and suddenly seeing, on a regular sort of day, a car in the middle of the intersection, a towel draped over the driver’s head and an arm still casually yet hauntingly resting on the edge of the window. Mine, from just two weeks ago, throwing the ball as I did every morning for my beautiful dog. I turned away saying that was enough and heard him thump down on the ground. I turned, watched him struggle a couple of times to breathe, reached down to take his ball out of his mouth hoping it would help and then, he was gone. Just like that. One minute he was here running and playing and the next simply gone, in a single moment.

I am not trying to be morbid here, I am just trying to say that yes life can be painful, challenging and incredibly hard but it is so glorious as well. This reminder today is in memory of my dog Willy. An amazing, three and a half year old dog that helped me navigate my crazy and painful life. He made me better on so many levels that I can’t even begin to touch upon. But he also showed me how precious life is and not to take it for granted despite the hardships. So today I enjoyed the feel of the sun on my skin and the time I had to have a simple yet pleasant lunch with my best friend, my hubby, and yes my back hurts like hell but it is worth every minute when we take the time to appreciate, when we use the tragedy of life to renew our awareness of the splendor of living this glorious life before it vanishes in a single moment.

In loving memory of my sweet boy, Willy who reminds us all with his short short life, to love unconditionally, live each day fully, savor everything and go out with a ball in your mouth.

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